In the great words of Popeye…I am’s whatta I am’s July 17, 2009

FIELD ov STONE July 28, 2011

A pity party this iZ NOTT!! So I’m purty sure y’all can see how disFUNctional I am. It’s OTAY tho… I alwayZ find ma silver lining. I also know how to LAUGH instead OV cry. It really is better that way. Big girlZ don’t cry!

This is however what I’m in search for. I want a SOULMATE!!! A true soulmate… The only thing I asked out of life was to be TRULY LUV’d… I’m soooo not tryin to pat ma bak here,BUT I have shown TRU LUV to soooo many. I’m not sayin I deserve someone to love me bak bc I loved them at all. When I do or say something nice to someone…it really is from the bottom of ma heart!!

What I’m sayin is…Quit being SCARED!!! I have alwayZ worn ma heart on ma sleeve.. Sure it has gotten me alot of heartbreak…I wouldn’t trade that heartbreAk for the world…I have learned soooooo much more from life lessons than I EVER will from a $50,000 piece of paper. I wouldn’t trade ma life lessons for anything in the world. It has made me who I am today. Now while sum people think I’m off,craZy,embarrassed to be seen with,and a wittle bit dumb… I really give a DAYUMMMMM!!! I don’t care what u think about me. I never have!!! People really are ignorant. I left all of the “HE SAID,SHE SAID” back in 1st grade!!! I don’t care if ur prez or if you’re skid row… WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME IS NONE OF MA BIZNAZZ!!! Period end OV story…

What I have sought out though is a protecter!! There have been a couple of things I asked in life… I wanted a daddy…I wanted a PROTECTOR!!! I just wanted someone that would be there NO MATTER WHAT!!! I wanted someone that would drop whatever just for me. I have done it soooo many times!!! I’m not complaining bout that…I’m just tryin to find that same someone who doesn’t have the EXCUSE OF… I’m not ready…or WHATTA u wanna do for me…I WANT 100%…I alwayZ give 100%…I WANT THE RECIPROCAL!!!

Could ya HELP me find ma POP? July 21, 2011

this is ma pop

ELLO LUVz!!!!

Long time no see…

Well that is because,as usual HaHa has a lot on her plate…I am trying to get ma manuscript edited,taking care of ma little heathens, and a seperation with Ted..Man lemme tell ya what..If it ain’t somethin’ then it’s sumthin else… The purpose of this post is to inform you on a person I hold near and dear to ma heart. His name is ROGER KENNITH WILSON (aka POP).

   Roger is the man my mother married a few years after my daddy commited suicied. She met him in AA. I was 10 years old when they got married. My brother and I were very jealous over someone coming in and taking our mom away. He stuck it through though,and believe me, we gave him HELL!!!  Any-hoo…He stuck it out. He stayed. I more than Will grew close to him. I think it has something to do with wanting to be that  “DADDY’S GIRL” kinda thing…When I was 11 I was in a BAAAAAD WRECK. I spent months in the hospital.and when I did get to go home I was still bed ridden for months….Roger would stick right by my side!!!  He would spen hours just rubbing my feet or arm..THE POWER OF A HEALING TOUCH IS REAL!!!! He even snuck ma dog Devil to see me…He was a great daddy to Will to. He never missed not 1 of his base ball games. He also had another step-daughter from a previous marriage..She also was a DADDY’S GIRL” to. Even though Rhonda,Pop,and me share no blood…We have always considered one another FAMILY!!!

So we lived the AMERICAN DREAM for just about a half a second. Roger is EXTREMELY SMART. He is a master electrition…He was working at the boats making really good money!!! Then RUH RO SHAGGY…His first love (DRUGS) came back for him..Drugs had already MURDERED his 1st family. Now the BEAST is ready to go for round 2…Lemme tell ya what…it was NOOOOOOO FUNNNNNN being raised by an addicted person. Ya never knew what you were gonna walk into. Drugs make ya do crazy things…I hadda run to kelly’s one time to call the police on him bc he was wigged out. He ended up busting her parents door down and beat my head against the fire placed…He dragged me home by the hair of ma head…I’m not sayin this to make pop look bad…I’M SHOWING YOU WHAT DRUGS DO TO A PERSON!!!  It wasn’t Roger that did all that bad stuff…I told ya,him SOBER he is the most AWESOME GUY in the world!!!! HIS HEART MIGHT EVEN BE BIGGER THAN MINE….A MONSTER CALLED DRUGS POSSESSED HIM. I know now that that wasn’t pop doing those things to me or ma family…It’s the NATURE OF THE BEAST inside of him…Those chemicals he put into his body MURDERED our chance of havin a family…When I was 17 everybody just went their seperate ways….I stayed at the house and got jobs and supported ma self…Will went and sewed his wild oats…my mother wasnt well then…she left and went to the country….Pop went to the streets….

Well that brings us to present day…A while back I had a feelin about him. I was sayin ma prayers with the girlys and his name popped in ma head….When GOD wants ya somewhere he just let’s ya kno LOUD & CLEAR….I tracked him down and found him in the nik of time…He was trying to commit suicide. Anyways to make a LOOOOOOOONG story short,I brought him to live with me…HE STILL ISN’T DONE…Rhonda (his other daughter) tried to…his brothers and sisters tried to…He just wouldn’t stop using…We were being robbed by him and we just couldn’t deal with it anymore…So we said ENOUGH!!! that was around 6 mos. ago….

Now pop usually would pop up or call for some ciggs and food ever so often…Well he is always at the back of ma mind,but I COULDN’T SAVE HIM FROM HIM….I tried soooooooo hard!!! SO HAS EVER BODY ELSE!!!  My mom saw a report of a homeless man’s body the other day and it matched Roger’s discription. Thank GOD IT WASN’T HIM,but no one has heard from him in a LOOOOONG TIME.. I would really like to know if he is ok or not…I’m really kind of scared what I might find…I did PROMISE him,I wasn’t gonna let him die alone.My last words to him was ” PoP I love ya with all ma heart and soul!!! I want you to know that I will alwayZ LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT U DO…and you will always have a part of ma heart with you NO MATTER WHAT!!! I just couldn’t have ma girls seein him kill his self…

     So if any of ya’ll could spread his pic for me it would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!  Oh I also made him a FB PAGE. If ya could spread the word that I’m looking for him I truly would be greatful!!!

Here is a link to my facebook group that I made for him…If you have any info please let me know there,or just feel free to join and help me get his picture out there…THX GUYz!!!  http://www.facebook.com/#!/groups/248305401863926?ap=1

DAZED & CONFUSED May 4, 2011

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DAZED & CONFUSED

by Holly Brooks on Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 8:51pm

DAZED & CONFUSED, DAZED & CONFUSED…

I tried to be a good wife,but it was never good

enough for U.

I wonder around from place to place

lookin for LUV to fill this space.

I’m sick of the fight,I can’t handle the truth.

I just wonder around DAZED & CONFUSED.

I medicate the pain. It is a VICE I kno. I still

seek, THE CHRIST even though.

I know he’s there at all cost…which gives me

comfort…for I know that I’m LOST.

I do NOTT question… his LUV for me,at the end

of the DAY…I JUST LET IT BE.

DAZED & CONFUSED is what I am,even in mysery

I still seek MY lamb!

I wanna RUN,I wanna HIDE,but still I try to ENJOY

tha RIDE.

I pray for HEAVEN in every breath,but still he does NOTT

bring me my DEATH!

It is ok because I DO SEE…JAYLEIGH AND KENDALL are the

LIFE of me!

I get knocked down OVER & OVER again…It’s time to

SURRENDER or I will be done in.

I don’t wanna live,I don’t wanna DIE…suspended animation

is where I lie.

DAZE & CONFUSED IS MY PLIGHT….PA LEASSE GLORY LORD

LEMME SEE THA LIGHT!!!

KEEP IT COPESTETIC…ETIC ETIC March 24, 2011

I don’t know what that means…I just like saying it!  So when me and Ted were fighting for the bazillionth time,he said something new….I am sooooo mad and hurt still from being kept away from my babies for sooooo long. I thought Ted just hated me…The whole time I was gone he didn’t say he LOVED me one time. They promised they would bring my girls and only did it one time. That’s why I acted so krazy!!! That’s why I hitchiked home 2x’s ta see MY GIRLS !!! I didn’t care what anybody thought except for TED,JAYLEIGH,and KENDALL!!!

Ted told me that my family told him to ignore me. Not to come see me. This ya’ll  is what happens when people don’t mind their own BIZNAZZ!!!  We were prolly both cryin our selves ta sleep ever night!!! I don’t know what it is about me that everone see’s the need ta intervine….WHEN THEY SHOULD BE LOOKIN IN THA MIRROR!!!

I’m gonna give it one more shot for MY FAMILY MY DREAM,bc I deserve it just as much as u do!!! I will forgive to. Forget though NEVER…ya don’t treat DOGS the way I was treated…PERIOD END OF STORY!!!  I’m gonna give it 1 more shot….and this time NOT 1 DAYUMMMM BODY WILL front me with the way I live!!!  If u do? Just be prepared ta suffa tha rath!!! cuz I’M BOUT IT! BOUT IT! BET!!!!

PEACE

Don’t make me go KARAZZY white GUHH on you!! March 24, 2011

So aight… Ima let THA monkey outta THA bottle (pineapple express..HAHA) I gotta have laf a little ta keep from cryin!! They don’t call me ( Aunt HA HA fir nut’n) GOTTA keep it KOSHER! There I go again, gettin sidetracked…GOTTA LUV ME!! (and oooooo Tika babe,ur yazzy turned my Diva into a lesbian. I gotta stop typin ta break them up…ohhhh MA LORD, U so owe me one!!!) K now where was I… Hold up lemme go read…. Yea time ta start a new paragraph… C below / gotta member what I was gonna post about… Oh wAit I GOT IT!!! KaRaZzy white GUHH!!

So this time I SCRWED up bunches!!! It was bout this time last year. It was Kendall’s birthday! He didn’t come home for the whole weekend (guilty,it goes both ways)…so DAYUMMMM STUPID!! Anyways I hadda feelin… Y’all know how WHITE TRASH I get when I loose ma temper. (am still workin on that,step bak and look at the sitch..before u leap) I got MA feelin,and he wouldn’t answer his phone… So I loaded up MA GIRLYS and a ride I did take! Now here is where I get all STUPID! I found Ted at his ex-wife’s house… He called in sick (TED HAS NEVER DONE THAT FOR ME) when I saw his car my heart SANK… I saw RED.. and pulled out MA pocket knife and went ta town on teds tires… RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ALL OUR KIDOS!! I sooo went there,and ASHAMED of ma self I AM!!!

Now that brings me ta the present…I have caused sooo much heartache and pain…and fir that I’m SORRY!!! Now TJ needs his daddy.. And he wants nothing ta do with me… Which is FINE!
I deserve ever thang that get’s thrown at me!!! What I can’t handle is T.J. not seeing his daddy because of me!!! They keep sayin TJ.. Doesn’t wanna come around BC of me!! And BLAME them I do NOTT!!! Ted and Holly are DunZo!!! We gave it a good run and sometimes $#!+ Happens… Just T.J. Please see ur daddy..!!!

Let’s Get all Ike & Tina up in dis B!0+€# March 18, 2011

K… Ima take a minute ta tell some OV ma GUHH’s out there, who are trapped like me some VALUABLE advice!!! Take heed WOMEN! “Behind ever good man/DAWG IZ a BETTA (& I do mean better) woman!!!! Ya see us girlZ go thru some stuff ta give our babies a decent life.
We get imprisoned by our life. We see NO way out. Ever once in a while you will hear a success story. Those are few and far between though. You’re more likely to see women on court TV who have just snapped and can’t take the pain anymore and do something KaRazZy! Then there are the ones who medicate (heller). Now we can’t forget bout the ones who play the illusion of “Donna Reed” all the while being tormented.
I used ta play the Donna Reed role. I wanted ever body ta think,man she’s got her stuff together. Then it came ta a point of wanting ta be numb to the pain. So I medicated. I have never done anything right for anybody, and was reminded MANY times over! Not just by Ted,but my family to. Ya see when a “man” works and provides,then he is A OK in your family’s book. As a matter of fact he is better than you. So much better than you they will move him in and send you up the creek (water under the bridge Holly). Sorry y’all. Can ya tell I’m a little jaded?!
Now girls out there this is what I have learned. The more things change the more they stay the same! We are STUCK. There are NO fairy tales! There is however, happily ever afters!!! DO WHAT MAKES U HAPPY!!!! GIVE A DAYUMMMMM bout what others think of you!!! I mean that from the depths of ma soul!!! If your family doesn’t support you??? Ummmerraaa O THA HELL WELL! You can love your family from a distance. I do and am happier for it! If ya can’t find a job because ever dang interview ya go on the boss man wants more of you,than answering the phone? It’s OTAY! Something will come along. When he comes at you in that drunken stupor,and decides ta choke you out… Pick up the biggest object you can find,and FIGHT THA HELL BACK!!!! FIGHT like your life depends on it! That is exactly what I do! Ma family thinks I am the abuser haha… That is because them BOYZ get good at crafting the art of abuse. They learn if ya choke em it doesn’t have ta leave a mark. They learn if ya ta a down pillow which is pretty heavy and swing with all their might,it leaves no scars.
Wait a minute now…we can’t furget THA mental stuff. Ya KNO, NOBODY WILL WANT U! you’re a natural born WHORE, you’re ugly,you’re a sorry excuse for a mother and a wife! Oh and ma favorite “YOU DISGUST ME”!!! Lemme tell ya what girlyZ,listen to it NO MORE!!!!!!
If you are imprisoned…MAKE IT FUNN!!! When he comes at you,you go right back at him! He hits u,knock his ASS out! He calls you outta your name,well then you do the same!!! TAKE IT NO MORE!!! Put your self on a pedastool! Cherish yourself! Go buy your own self flowers! Dedicate songs to yourself!!! Talk yourself UP! You don’t need a man ta do it! Be POSITIVE!!! Always remember this to shall pass! Ima leave ya with this… WALK SOFTLY and CARRY A CAST IRON SKILLET!!!!!!

Till next time…HOLLLLLAAAAA

CHOICES….CHOICES…CHOICES,JERRY LEE CHOICES!!! March 1, 2011

Sup Peeps?!  Ya’ll I’m so tired. Just Sick and Tired….I have tried fir close ta 10 yrs. now ta CHANGE THIS DANG MAN!!! GOD kno’s I have, I HAVE…. I’M soooo the GLASS is half  FULL, and he’s so… GIMMY THAT DAMN GLASS, u don’t deserve it! I’m ” TA MORROW IZ ANOTHAA DAY” and he’s so IT’S DOOOMS DAY….we’re all gonna die! we’re all gonna die! Tis true what he says,we are gonna die one day. It doth happen ta all ov us!  (NO FAIR…FAIR IS FAIR, says BILLIE JEAN) I get life is no fair,and I get FAIRY TALES are fir da birds…

It’s all about the ILLUSION…LIFE IS AN ILLUSION that’s it,so very DANG simple. It’s all in how ya look at it! I always try ta find the SILVER LINING…and soooooo many people around me wanna WOLLER N MISERY…YA’LL THAT AINT”TH FUNN !!! THE PEOPLE THAT ARE POSE TA TREASURE ME ARE JUST PURE D MEAN AND HATEFUL! HATEFUL things comith outta their mouths….I’M SOOOOOOO DUNZO WITH IT! IF YA AIN’T GOT NUT’N NICE TA SAY GET GONEEEEE!!!! What people think about me is NUN OV MA BIZNAZZ ;~)!

I know I’m a little out there. I’m a DIAMOND in the ruff  (PS when I die, I want ta be creamated,and ma carbon compressed ta make a diamond,that way I can be forever),but sooo in tha hell what?!! JUDGE NOTTT LEST YE BE JUDGED (kids outta wed lock, shackin up,plan B pills, peeps takin PRESCRIBED drugs,but it doeth the same thing as if ya bought it frum a KRAZY on THIRD,and the alcoholic that likes ta get MEAN ever weekend! ,and keepin ‘BAD COMPANY”  can we say HIPPOCRIT!!!!!!!!! The difference is NO ONE seperated any ov those people frum their babies and reminded them of how DISGUSTING you are ever chance they get, AZ IF!!!!

Now I have seperated ma self from MOST OV THOSE COMMENTS….All except for TED…I HAVE TRIED GOD KNOWS I HAVE TRIED….( niceness,it’s a GOOD THING!) I just want him ta be NICE…that’s all. TED IS AN AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME DADDY to his girls by being an EXCELLENT PROVIDER!!!! I in ma life have NEVER SEEN SUCH A HARD WORKER….I mean he takes it to the LIMIT!!!  He is just Jaded tho…In all HONESTY it breaks ma heart for him. I SOOOOO WANT HIM TA BE HAPPY!!!! He just NEVER WILL BE, until he realizes HAPPINESS is an INSIDE JOB!!! I have stayed with him sooooooo long because #1 I took a vow,2 we have beautiful babies together,and 3 I do love him!!! I LOVE  him like a child though. He needs ta be taken care of. I’m not talkin bout bringin his plate to him,or shavin his beard….I love doin that! I’m talkin bout, he literally won’t call and order a pizza bc it will turn into a fight. He is so ready to POUNCE….I just can’t live that way ANYMORE….I didn’t wanna be a STAT! I soooooo wanted to make it. I don’t wanna go to HELL, and I don’t wanna break a covenant I have with him and Jesus. I put a VOW on it! That is why I’m sooooooo conflicted. I do realize though that I’m only HUMAN just like ALL the other SINNERS out there. JESUS didn’t die for u a little bit more than he died for ME….I think he is loving and forgiving,and I prolly don’t deserve it but neither do U… WE’RE NOTTT WORTHY (Wayne’s World,Wayne’s World PARTY TIME)!!!! 

I do want a divorce, the problem is I can’t getta job…I’ve been offered TONS of jobs,but the benefits that come with it AIN’T FITTIN AIN’T FITTIN AT ALL!!! I’m a good GIRL I AM I AM!! (princeple before practice FOO! keep it KOSHER) I am writing this book and am gonna sale it,but it ain’t dun yet and MASTER PIECES take time…It in it’s self is a GAMBLE but ya’ll kno I GETTR DID! (to people who think I’m just playin online…I STICKITH MA TONGUE OUT AT U! it’s called building a network ( I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER IN BLOGGIN, they’ve taught me SOOOO MURCH). I just can’t catch a break in the mean time….I need a JOB,with NO BENEFITS….if anyone’s hiring out there!!!

I DON’T WANNA BE RICH AND FAMOUS ( HELLLLL 2 THA NO!!!) all I want is a house in the kuntry with ma ANIMALS and YARD WORK…I LUV TA MAKE A GARDEN….(thx aunt DD) THAT IZ SOOOOOO NOT THAT MUCH TA ASK OUTTA LIFE!!! SO I have made the decision FOR REEEEEEEEELLLLL THIS TIME (even tho if  TED EVER NEEDED ANYTHING I would be RITE THERE!!) I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY….and that’s what would make me HAPPY!!!  A FAIRY TALE, I NEED NOTT!!!! but A HAPPILY EVER AFTER….OH YEA…IT SHALL BE MINE!!!!

don’t know how I’m gonna go about doin it,but WHERE THERE’S A WILL THERE’S A WAY!!!!  Did ya’ll know I have a WILL…he’s ma bro…I just need a WAY!!! no worries tho, he will lead me there….

PEACE IN THE MIDDLE EAST….SAVE THE WHALES!!!

till next time HOLLAAAAA

DO NOT SEEK THE TREASURE…dooooo nooott… February 8, 2011

last night ma mama and ma bro came over…I needed that soooo very bad!!! What I gather is it was pure HELL CHAOS… that happened all those years ago…it sounded ta me almost like war…that everyone involved was in pure hell…I have always felt so torn between two worlds…I’m so very glad that Jesus sought me through,and I don’t have ta be torn…I just have ta be me…man I can’t wait till we are all in heaven together and can take a family portrait…wonder if they have a blow dryer in heaven?

PS… DO NOT SEEK THE TREASURE u will find out u are the treasure
Till next time HOLLAAAAA

MY DADDY WENT TA HELL…BUTTA THINK HE’S JUST BEEN DELIVERED FROM IT February 5, 2011

             k ya’ll, I just hadda AH HA moment!!!  (uh huh,blondes have em to sometimes…) I’m not writing this ta rag on ma mother’s side of the family. I am writing this ta WAKE EM UP! and I hope ta open some others people’s eyes along the way. Now HOLLYtheHOUSEWIFE has been on this really BIG ODYSSEY called LIFE! I know ya’ll read a few posts back about ma daddy… Well ma whole life I’ve been told how “SELFISH” he was by commiting suicide. Then God gave me ma own addiction,and made me realize it wasn’t selfishness that made him do it. It was SICKNESS. Now last time I checked,when someone is sick…you show COMPASSION. Ya know,Kinda like what ma SWEET BABY JESUS did for us,when he was nailed to the cross!!!!

                                                        I have just realized what happened ta ma DADDY! HE WAS SHOWN NO COMPASSION,and he knew NOT about the real JESUS!!!  The real Jesus. The Jesus who surrounded himself with a whore, leapors,and back stabbers…He did it NOT ta JUDGE them,but to show  COMPASSION!!!! HE SHOWED UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!! He Never turned on us…

TIME OUT….that MAMA, MIMI, and aunt Kelly,is why I keep “BAD COMPANY” because I care NOTT…what kind of stock they come from!!!! We all bleed the same color, and ya can’t take that “channel bag” ta heaven with u!!! In the GREAT WORDS OF RANDY TRAVIS, “it’s not what ya take with you,but what ya leave behind ya when ya go”

TIME IN….Now at the time of ma daddy’s suicide, I just realized what was happening….ME AND MA BROTHER WERE BEING HELD BACK AWAY FROM HIM!!!! Kinda EXACTLY WHAT THEY JUST DID TA ME!!!! but I knew JESUS, had ma back,and he didn’t. HE HAD NOBODY NOBODY NOBODY…..and lemme tell ya what….THAT IS A SCARY ASS FEELING!!!  He just needed a DURN DANG HUG!!!! JUST LIKE ME! I had ma hug ma whole life from JESUS THO…I KNOW HIM….MA DADDY JUST WAS SICK AND LOST!!! NOT SELFISH AND MEAN!! HAVING UR BABIES TAKEN AWAY KILLS UR HEART SOOOOOOOOOO BAD!!!  No one can go trhough life without having anyone. I MEAN NO ONE!

                             Now when I was 7 years old I hadda aunt who told me ma daddy went ta HELL! I used ta picture ma daddy burning for all eternity,which scared me ta death! I’ve been burned,it hurts!!! Now I’m realizing he WAS IN HELL….but a HELL much worse than physical HELL….JESUS is our DADDY, he doesn’t let ya off scott free for,even though he was sick….Ma poor daddy has had ta watch me and Will grow up without him. He has had ta see ALL and I mean ALL the PAIN me and ma brother have  suffered. I’m NOTTT gonna go into what I have been through (DUHHH bc I’m fixinna sell ya’ll a book) but I am gonna tell u that if I hadda step away as ma daddy and watch our lives it would be HELL FOR ME!!! AS IT WAS TA HIM!!! Now I don’t know about Will but right now I’m fixina realease him from ma part of HELL, and say something that up until ta day I have NEVER said to him….I LOVE U DADDY,WITH ALL MA HEART AND SOUL….and I just can’t wait for that day in HEAVEN when I get ta get the BIGGEST BESTEST DADDY’S GIRL HUG IN THE WHOLE DANG WIDE WORLD!!!! JUST CAN’T WAIT!!! Now don’t ya worry bout us no more…I’m sure there are more hard times ta come,butta got JESUS!!!    DUHHH!!!!  and now I know I got YOU TO!!! YAYYYSSS!! haha…I’m a little dingy but I’m sure you already know that….k soooo I just LOVE U SO DANG MUCH,AND I’M A TELL YA EVER DAY….just like I tell ever body else thatta love them to!!!!

Now to ma readers….I don’t know if I’m gonna post often or not,but I soooooo just had ta get that out!!! I FEEL SO DANG RELEASED!!!! now update on ma book….got the first 4 chapters dunzo and I’m writing as it hits me…I’m in no hurry it’ll be here when it gets here. I soooooooo plan ta get me, ma bro (will), ma cousin little K (karl, I’ll tell yall about him and his daddy in ma book) just know that he sooooooo deserves it to…and ma cousin TaNash (Tasha, ya’ll will be hearin about her to) a spot of land and put us some houses on it….and ya know what I GIVE A DAYUMMMM if it’s double wides that we put on there,bc houses and keepin up with the jones’s means as much ta me as one of them dang big O water bugs ( sooooooo scary,gotta story bout one of them to)…..ohhhhhhh I can’t wait!!! I’m sooooo EXCITED!!!! and I just can’t hide it…….I’m a bout ta looooooose control and I think I like it….uuuuuuhhhhhhh huh..

ps…mama,mimi,aunt kelly….I love yall with all ma heart and soul,and if ya need anything I will be right there…I always am….but compassion and not material things….it makes ya happy!!!

K…..PEACE IN THE MIDDLE EAST…..and SAVE THA WHALES…….HOLLLA!!!!!!!!! oh and don’t have time ta run spell check gotta go get Ted….I will do it later DUHHHHH

CANNNA GETTAAAA HELL 2 THE YEA BABY!!!!! February 2, 2011

I GOT MA DIVA BAK!!!!! I WUV HER SOOOOOO MUCH….THE GIRLS ARE GONNA BE ECSTATIC!!!! WOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO * does cart wheels* and *flips* and SON OF A yup….that’s gonna leave a mark….dang walls…always gettin in ma way…tehehehehehahhahaha