Sup Peeps?! Ya’ll I’m so tired. Just Sick and Tired….I have tried fir close ta 10 yrs. now ta CHANGE THIS DANG MAN!!! GOD kno’s I have, I HAVE…. I’M soooo the GLASS is half FULL, and he’s so… GIMMY THAT DAMN GLASS, u don’t deserve it! I’m ” TA MORROW IZ ANOTHAA DAY” and he’s so IT’S DOOOMS DAY….we’re all gonna die! we’re all gonna die! Tis true what he says,we are gonna die one day. It doth happen ta all ov us! (NO FAIR…FAIR IS FAIR, says BILLIE JEAN) I get life is no fair,and I get FAIRY TALES are fir da birds…
It’s all about the ILLUSION…LIFE IS AN ILLUSION that’s it,so very DANG simple. It’s all in how ya look at it! I always try ta find the SILVER LINING…and soooooo many people around me wanna WOLLER N MISERY…YA’LL THAT AINT”TH FUNN !!! THE PEOPLE THAT ARE POSE TA TREASURE ME ARE JUST PURE D MEAN AND HATEFUL! HATEFUL things comith outta their mouths….I’M SOOOOOOO DUNZO WITH IT! IF YA AIN’T GOT NUT’N NICE TA SAY GET GONEEEEE!!!! What people think about me is NUN OV MA BIZNAZZ ;~)!
I know I’m a little out there. I’m a DIAMOND in the ruff (PS when I die, I want ta be creamated,and ma carbon compressed ta make a diamond,that way I can be forever),but sooo in tha hell what?!! JUDGE NOTTT LEST YE BE JUDGED (kids outta wed lock, shackin up,plan B pills, peeps takin PRESCRIBED drugs,but it doeth the same thing as if ya bought it frum a KRAZY on THIRD,and the alcoholic that likes ta get MEAN ever weekend! ,and keepin ‘BAD COMPANY” can we say HIPPOCRIT!!!!!!!!! The difference is NO ONE seperated any ov those people frum their babies and reminded them of how DISGUSTING you are ever chance they get, AZ IF!!!!
Now I have seperated ma self from MOST OV THOSE COMMENTS….All except for TED…I HAVE TRIED GOD KNOWS I HAVE TRIED….( niceness,it’s a GOOD THING!) I just want him ta be NICE…that’s all. TED IS AN AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME DADDY to his girls by being an EXCELLENT PROVIDER!!!! I in ma life have NEVER SEEN SUCH A HARD WORKER….I mean he takes it to the LIMIT!!! He is just Jaded tho…In all HONESTY it breaks ma heart for him. I SOOOOO WANT HIM TA BE HAPPY!!!! He just NEVER WILL BE, until he realizes HAPPINESS is an INSIDE JOB!!! I have stayed with him sooooooo long because #1 I took a vow,2 we have beautiful babies together,and 3 I do love him!!! I LOVE him like a child though. He needs ta be taken care of. I’m not talkin bout bringin his plate to him,or shavin his beard….I love doin that! I’m talkin bout, he literally won’t call and order a pizza bc it will turn into a fight. He is so ready to POUNCE….I just can’t live that way ANYMORE….I didn’t wanna be a STAT! I soooooo wanted to make it. I don’t wanna go to HELL, and I don’t wanna break a covenant I have with him and Jesus. I put a VOW on it! That is why I’m sooooooo conflicted. I do realize though that I’m only HUMAN just like ALL the other SINNERS out there. JESUS didn’t die for u a little bit more than he died for ME….I think he is loving and forgiving,and I prolly don’t deserve it but neither do U… WE’RE NOTTT WORTHY (Wayne’s World,Wayne’s World PARTY TIME)!!!!
I do want a divorce, the problem is I can’t getta job…I’ve been offered TONS of jobs,but the benefits that come with it AIN’T FITTIN AIN’T FITTIN AT ALL!!! I’m a good GIRL I AM I AM!! (princeple before practice FOO! keep it KOSHER) I am writing this book and am gonna sale it,but it ain’t dun yet and MASTER PIECES take time…It in it’s self is a GAMBLE but ya’ll kno I GETTR DID! (to people who think I’m just playin online…I STICKITH MA TONGUE OUT AT U! it’s called building a network ( I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER IN BLOGGIN, they’ve taught me SOOOO MURCH). I just can’t catch a break in the mean time….I need a JOB,with NO BENEFITS….if anyone’s hiring out there!!!
I DON’T WANNA BE RICH AND FAMOUS ( HELLLLL 2 THA NO!!!) all I want is a house in the kuntry with ma ANIMALS and YARD WORK…I LUV TA MAKE A GARDEN….(thx aunt DD) THAT IZ SOOOOOO NOT THAT MUCH TA ASK OUTTA LIFE!!! SO I have made the decision FOR REEEEEEEEELLLLL THIS TIME (even tho if TED EVER NEEDED ANYTHING I would be RITE THERE!!) I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY….and that’s what would make me HAPPY!!! A FAIRY TALE, I NEED NOTT!!!! but A HAPPILY EVER AFTER….OH YEA…IT SHALL BE MINE!!!!
don’t know how I’m gonna go about doin it,but WHERE THERE’S A WILL THERE’S A WAY!!!! Did ya’ll know I have a WILL…he’s ma bro…I just need a WAY!!! no worries tho, he will lead me there….
PEACE IN THE MIDDLE EAST….SAVE THE WHALES!!!
till next time HOLLAAAAA
Hol, you can’t help anyone unless they want to help themselves. But I’m sure you know that. I hope you get everything you’re wishing for. That little house in the country sounds wonderful. You deserve it.
THX NP!!!! ur the BESTEST EVER!!!!